Category Archives: Stream-of-consciousness

WHAT DO I (STEVE) WANT FROM THIS NARRATIVE; AND FROM THE PROCESS OF NOTATING IT; AND,FOR WHOM? A CLARIFICATION. BY STEVEN BENSON.

Posted on June 7, 2020 by decayetude

(Writing amidsts anti-social neighbours,PIP Appeal, repeated attacks of diverticular disease, and on heavy antibiotics{again…}, but also with the writing of my trajectory in mind,I am getting really frustrated and angst-belaboured now…… [PLEASE DO NOT-DEAR TUTOR- take this personally!!! ….:) These … Continue reading →

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TOWARDS AN UNKNOWN REGION:A POST/ASLANT-COVID (AUTO)NARRATIVE(CONTD).AND ALL-ABOUT-DATING…BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 9, 2020 by decayetude

“Next morning, all geography lay snowbound”(Leif Enger, Peace like a River”) “Flotsam from the city’s shipwreck” (“Bookshops, Carrion, 2013) I am also-citationally-indebted to the opening sentence of Bernhard “Concrete”(1982); whilst I am not (currently) writing a biography of Felix Mendelssohn(though … Continue reading →

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WRITING EXERCISE. MIGHT BECOME MORE….30 EVENTS IN MY LIFE; IN BULLET SNAP-SHOTS(with brief marginalia).THE FIRST TWENTY(might not get further) BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 2, 2020 by decayetude

Can I link this to my “loose baggy monster”{H.James}post/across Covid putative (ever-delayed) visitor-in-his-own-land narrative; is this just one-step too freaky???…. ____________________________________________________________ HERE GOES: 30? wtf…….In BULLET points? wtf….my life (hitherto) on a menu I was born [TRIGGER; too traumatic] 2. … Continue reading →

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WRITING EXERCISE…. AND MORE.WHAT MAKES MY METRONOME WORK AND NOT WORK(“RIDERS”/”DRIVERS”).HOW CAN I USE THIS IS IN MY POST-COVID UNREAL/REAL OLD/NEW REALITY SERIES OF NARRATIVES? .BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on April 22, 2020 by decayetude

Let’s see where this goes….. As gay men, we made/make our (ever-changing/growing/receding{sometimes, in Covid time; occasionally expanding even then/now}REALITY…. to various degrees, depending on various macro and micro life /geographical configurations(and there is some choice in it, if we are … Continue reading →

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“YES, I REMEMBER MUM’S LARDER”.BY STEVEN BENSON. CREATIVE COURSE. 2.20.

Posted on February 8, 2020 by decayetude

“Un Wont Ed Ly…..Farther and farther”{father} Addlestrop, Edward Thomas     It was circa 1966: in mum’s larder. Narnia, filled with hoovers, a semi-desuetudinous(even then) coffee percolater(powered by means of some, possibly, dangerous, methane liquid, and used only on very … Continue reading →

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THE HEAD-HUNTER:VOICES AND SCALPS.BY STEVEN BENSON. FOR CREATIVE WRITING COURSE.

Posted on January 30, 2020 by decayetude

Peter’s job was to work for an “Agency” and look around for people who had the job-spec, “transferrable skills” and personal qualities (sycophancy, desire to “get on” et al) for certain vacant posts. He was also in charge of “due … Continue reading →

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MORITZ MOSZKOWSKI:A PAEAN. BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on November 22, 2019 by decayetude

Moritz, you Gay-ify The dull World, with Your harmonic Twists and Turns.   I lOVE YOU; (And your Music); My fave F O R G O T T EN Composer.   Forsaken By the Musical Self-pro Claimed “Est-ab-lish-ment”. But NOT … Continue reading →

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IN/ON THE BRINK.A HODGE-PODGE: TO BREAK WRITER BLOCK. BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 6, 2019 by decayetude

“The Brink” is a “dry” bar/cafe/venue in Liverpool; it is where recovering alcoholics- amongst other nomadic denizens- often dwell.   I feel at home there; but I feel slightly threatened too. ———————————————————————–   I will now try to re-boost my … Continue reading →

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THE QUEST FOR THE ULTIMATE LOOSE, BAGGY MONSTER;BOOKS, MUSIC,BUILDINGS.BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 22, 2018 by decayetude

Just bought “The Magus”(Fowles)….. I am entranced by these epic leviathans, what James called “large, loose, baggy monsters”. Episodic travails and traversals, digressive,rhizomatic, multiple (sub)plots( some need a dramatis personae, a la Tostoi!); postmodern; contrapuntal narratives; you get my drift: … Continue reading →

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HOTEL:WHAT IS IT? A FREE EXTEMPORIZATION. BY STEVEN BENSON.

Posted on January 12, 2018 by decayetude

CATALYST: WAYNE KOESTENBAUM: HOTEL THEORY(2007) Hotel liminal Hotel du Lac Hotel de la Spinster Hotel Brookner. Anita Brookner’s protagonists LIVE in hotels; women (occasionally men) of “private means”, they can afford to, economically that is. Psychologically, they inhabit the inner (psychogeographically … Continue reading →

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