Category Archives: Self-actualisation

READING AND/THEN WRITING.A DIVAGATORY EXPLORATION OF THE PROCESS.BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on July 25, 2020 by decayetude

To read is to write (sooner or later)……   I have got into a habit of buying intriguingly entrancing-appearing tomes on subjects clustered around: QUEER Walking/peregrinatory, not in a direct line, loitering; divagating { I also experience diverticular disease/diverticulitis….}; periphrastic … Continue reading →

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COVID NARRATIVE:DIFFUSE-ENTITY.What is at stake? BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on June 21, 2020 by decayetude

Is this(still) a beginning?; a few baby steps?; do I want-outside the Writing course framework(it ends tomorrow)- to continue with it,(stops and starts at wayside halts and all)? Is it the end? so, WHAT IS,indeed, at stake? QUESTIONS TO BE … Continue reading →

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I HOARD;I COLLECT; I RESCUE THE REMNANTS/THE PRECIOUS THINGS. THEREFORE, I AM. BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on June 16, 2020 by decayetude

A POEM! {FREE VERSE….ish } I Collect ALL things; I represent multitudes (of Lps and books and cds); I am reparative; I give all these phantasmagorical lovely things their rightful place in eternity; I save the traces of precarious capitalism. … Continue reading →

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WHAT DO I (STEVE) WANT FROM THIS NARRATIVE; AND FROM THE PROCESS OF NOTATING IT; AND,FOR WHOM? A CLARIFICATION. BY STEVEN BENSON.

Posted on June 7, 2020 by decayetude

(Writing amidsts anti-social neighbours,PIP Appeal, repeated attacks of diverticular disease, and on heavy antibiotics{again…}, but also with the writing of my trajectory in mind,I am getting really frustrated and angst-belaboured now…… [PLEASE DO NOT-DEAR TUTOR- take this personally!!! ….:) These … Continue reading →

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ABANDONED ON THE BJ’S DESERT ISLAND (ENGLAND/”ENGLAND”). SAFE(R) SPACES,COPING, SELF-CARE PLAN. BY STEVEN BENSON.

Posted on May 22, 2020 by decayetude

DISCLAIMER….THIS IS MY PERSONAL survival/self-care plan; I am not advocating its use to anyone else,as all individual circumstances vary. However, it MAY (or may not!) serve as a LOOSE template, for others……… I, also, need to write it, before moving on … Continue reading →

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IN AN UNKNOWN REGION. WHERE NOW?AN OPINION PIECE.BY STEVEN BENSON.

Posted on May 14, 2020 by decayetude

This calls for bulletpoints:P :- 1.Is it CHAOS THEORY (Cummings)? 2.Or just(unintentional, cock-up variety of)chaos 3.Is it HERD IMMUNITY?(un-proved and poured doubt on by reputable scientists) 4.Is it “harvesting”?  https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2020/may/08/care-home-residents-harvested-left-to-die-uk-government-herd-immunity (A beyond-disturbing read….) 5. A lethal(literally) combination of 1-4 above? … Continue reading →

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TOWARDS AN UNKNOWN REGION:A POST/ASLANT-COVID (AUTO)NARRATIVE(CONTD).AND ALL-ABOUT-DATING…BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 9, 2020 by decayetude

“Next morning, all geography lay snowbound”(Leif Enger, Peace like a River”) “Flotsam from the city’s shipwreck” (“Bookshops, Carrion, 2013) I am also-citationally-indebted to the opening sentence of Bernhard “Concrete”(1982); whilst I am not (currently) writing a biography of Felix Mendelssohn(though … Continue reading →

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THE BATTLES I FIGHT…WRITING EXERCISE (and more?):GRADUALLY SLINKING TOWARDS THE POST/ASLANT COVID NARRATIVE(S).THE PRELUDE(BOOK, ABOUT 7).BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 3, 2020 by decayetude

PHOBIAS(other peoples’s): polite word for dislike(occasionally, hatred); sometimes, a fear:”Ohh, wtf, that might be ME; I might be secretly like THAT; I better be nasty to them….” HOMO TRANS BI CAMP NON-GENDER BINARY   WELFARE BENEFITS CLAIMANTS; economically poor people … Continue reading →

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WRITING EXERCISE. MIGHT BECOME MORE….30 EVENTS IN MY LIFE; IN BULLET SNAP-SHOTS(with brief marginalia).THE FIRST TWENTY(might not get further) BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on May 2, 2020 by decayetude

Can I link this to my “loose baggy monster”{H.James}post/across Covid putative (ever-delayed) visitor-in-his-own-land narrative; is this just one-step too freaky???…. ____________________________________________________________ HERE GOES: 30? wtf…….In BULLET points? wtf….my life (hitherto) on a menu I was born [TRIGGER; too traumatic] 2. … Continue reading →

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WRITING EXERCISE…. AND MORE.WHAT MAKES MY METRONOME WORK AND NOT WORK(“RIDERS”/”DRIVERS”).HOW CAN I USE THIS IS IN MY POST-COVID UNREAL/REAL OLD/NEW REALITY SERIES OF NARRATIVES? .BY STEVEN BENSON

Posted on April 22, 2020 by decayetude

Let’s see where this goes….. As gay men, we made/make our (ever-changing/growing/receding{sometimes, in Covid time; occasionally expanding even then/now}REALITY…. to various degrees, depending on various macro and micro life /geographical configurations(and there is some choice in it, if we are … Continue reading →

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