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ENTHUSIASMS: CLASSICAL MUSIC, ESPECIALLY OBSCURE ROMANTIC COMPOSERS; BACH/HANDEL LITERATURE, ESPECIALLY THOUGHTFUL, WELL-WRITTEN(STYLISTICALLY)NOVELS W G SEBALD WALTER BENJAMIN THEODOR ADORNO(JUST BEGINNING!) AESTHETIC PHILOSOPHY GAY MEN'S WRITING;QUEER THEORY STIMULATING DISCUSSIONS(EMOTIONALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY) GOOD RICH THICK ESPRESSO MICHAEL PONTI SPRITUALITY/LIFE'S "AURA"(BENJAMIN), WHATEVER TRANSCENDENTAL THING YOU WANT TO CALL THIS MEMORY-the elusiveness thereof. LOST TIME AND AN ATTEMPT AT ITS REDEMPTION(NON THEISTICALLY/RELIGIOUSLY)

MASCULINITY AND ME.BY STEVEN BENSON.

CATALYST: “The Descent of Man”(Grayson Perry, 2016) I am (mainly) a social construction in regard to gender roles. Whilst I am a PSYCHOLOGICAL  androgynite (identifying-emotionally- as neither ” male” nor female”, since these alleged “masculine” or “feminine” psychological traits are NOT … Continue reading

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WHY DO I WRITE?. FOR MERSEYSIDE LGBT CREATIVE WRITING GROUP.JUNE 2018.FREEFLOW. BY STEVEN BENSON

QUESTIONS Status angst? (A bit; see below) Do I (linked to above; other reasons?) want to be published; in what format? Is(n’t) a blog enough?(well, one mainly defunct, in decay, “Decayetude https://decayetude.wordpress.com/ and the hopeful one more active:THIS one!) These … Continue reading

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BOOKSHOP STORIES. PART 3.YARBOROUGH HOUSE:A MANIC MEDITATION. BY STEVEN BENSON

There is a place called Yarborough House. It is a bookshop-cum-record-and café entity. It is in the struggling, slightly decaying town of Bishop’s Castle in the lorn lostness of Shropshire (“Clunton, Clunbury, Clungunford and Clun”). The town-if such is not … Continue reading

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TWO YOUNG MEN TOGETHER SITTING. BY STEVEN BENSON.

{Hommage to Walt Whitman, celebrant of male beauty} Two Young Men Together Sitting. Green top, Orange pumps.   Good Eye Contact; Probably “Just Friends” (But you Never Know!).   Conversing with Phones and Each Other   Glimpsed Moments.   Am … Continue reading

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“WHO AM I TO WRITE ‘US’?”.”HOMO-HISTORIAN”. REFLECTIONS ON “SOHO”(SCOTT):LOOSE BAGGY, QUEER MONSTROUSNESS. BY STEVEN BENSON

Quotations(above) from Richard Scott:”My Soho” in his new collection of poems “Soho”, 2018) Read this collection: Scott: self-styled(but insecure) “homo-historian”. I love that phrase:). He evokes-in his multi-layered, Whitmanesque (replete with long lines/enjambement) semi-poetry/semi-prose- the aporia of a gay man … Continue reading

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THE QUEST FOR THE ULTIMATE LOOSE, BAGGY MONSTER;BOOKS, MUSIC,BUILDINGS.BY STEVEN BENSON

Just bought “The Magus”(Fowles)….. I am entranced by these epic leviathans, what James called “large, loose, baggy monsters”. Episodic travails and traversals, digressive,rhizomatic, multiple (sub)plots( some need a dramatis personae, a la Tostoi!); postmodern; contrapuntal narratives; you get my drift: … Continue reading

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THE HOTEL IS RE-BORN. DOCU-FICTION(OR WHATEVER!). BY STEVEN BENSON.

You might think the following essay- connected to this-  https://towardsutopia.wordpress.com/2018/04/14/the-hotel-a-ghost-story-by-steven-benson/ is fiction; you might not…. What is fact/what is fiction?…”fake news”… blurred lines…disingenuous narratives. In the following case, it may not matter; but then it MAY, because I would like to … Continue reading

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THE HOTEL: A GHOST STORY. BY STEVEN BENSON.

{C.F. https://decayetude.wordpress.com/2012/05/05/the-hotel-and-the-guest-a-story-of-sebaldian-malaise-and-an-essay-in-psychogeography/  and https://decayetude.wordpress.com/2018/02/23/residuary-body-by-steven-benson/ and https://decayetude.wordpress.com/2013/02/20/6th-march-1967-the-jolt-a-story-of-spectral-geography-and-uncanny-architecture-by-steven-benson/ The guest booked on one of those endlessly replicating internet sites for hotel reservations. “Booking confirmed”(date, time details) The time came. He arrived. The hotel formed the grand frontage of a railway station. “Somewhat … Continue reading

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3 INTERTWINED ROOTS. PART 3. OPEN READING/OPEN WRITING/OPEN SPACES. BY STEVEN BENSON.

With thanks to Dr. Christopher Madden for being the catalyst for this reflection.   I read (perhaps just a few lines/ a paragraph) I think: “That needs a personal construct” I write: my OWN take on what I have read; … Continue reading

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WALTZ/WALDTEUFEL. BY STEVEN BENSON

Sad Poignant Strains…. It yearns It longs For a World Long-Gone; Of once Elegant Ballrooms(then); NOW: deserted, rodent-infested, SHELLS of the dead grand edifices: on piers, in old hotels….so that Emil’s Elegy Winds Sinuously- Sadly Through the Debris, As the … Continue reading

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