MY WRITING STYLE AND HOW IT HAS DEVELOPED, PACE NAYSAYERS.SELF-REFLECTIVE AND META.(ONGOING).BY STEVEN BENSON.

My writing style has developed (for good or ill) IN DESPITE of a minority of others who proclaim their impatience/judgement of it. They do this for motives the nature of which I am unclear. Either:

  1. they just do not understand my vocabulary{dictionaries are available}/style/form .
  2.  They are a tad envious of me {arrogant of me, thus to think??}
  3. They think in little boxes about “academic” versus (in a dialectical process) “creative”. It HAS to be an either/or; in ONE box or the other.
  4. Or a combination thereof.

On the other hand, some “get”/get it and (from sensitivity or genuine admiration)suspend judgement:). The irony is that the attacks and (de-)constructive criticism/feedback on my style/vocabulary have, in actuality, refined and (semi)DEfined the “excesses”{let’s just say idiosyncrasies/quirks} in that they have made me slightly rebellious and I want to use the said the words MORE, but (SELF-)critically, when I deem appropriate(or ironic). The ironic, camp, parlous loftiness (or an attempt therat), the self-referential self-dialectic(or, I hope, dialogue) continues apace. Probably because of “defensiveness”{ a relativistic word, which changes meaning determinant on what one is defending oneself from!}, I HEIGHTEN, I (faux?) elevate it(sometimes, IF I choose; I have agency; this sister has burnt his/her bra). I, semi-desuetudinously, meander, in a non (hetero) normative fashion through the penumbrous (and, knowingly, self-tautological) liminal realms and demesnes of language, like some desultory flaneur, remorselessly peregrinating. A restless soul.

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You only strengthen and assist me! Not JUST to be “contrary”/contrary but in order that I might further self-elucidate and hone my style.; and individuate {with hommage, of course, to certain writers. who shall be obvious}.

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In a different tone, equally pertinent, I think creative writing groups and taught/semi-taught creative writing courses(or those that are a mixture of both) CAN be and, sometimes, ARE
Life-affirming

Style-developing

Constructively critical (eg ways to proceed further with your work/enhance it)…

I should know… I (co) run such a (free fall, CONstructively critical) group.{ATTITUDE!:P}

I am very clear that we should write what reflects US as members, engaged in joint(equal but different) and separate writing, sans editorial or funding constraints. WE have built up trust and support over months(which does not obviate constructive criticism). We don’t interpellate, inappropriately, “too many big words”, “that is too academic” type comments, bombs detonated into people’s PRIVATE world of writing(whether overtly written about the self, or not, ALL writing is a personal manifestation of the {complex} self). We nurture each other. The second group I attended, the last session of which was the flame that lit this rant,was, until that very session, nurturing and supportive and full of considered constructive feedback; it was a safe space (no less so than it was one for lgbtq people)… upto the point that….: a remote editor, who had NEVER attended even part of one meeting,and thus not built up trust/rapport with ANY members of the group(as had the three excellent faciliators built these up over 8 wonderful weeks): this person, towards the end of the last session, sent in editorial /”editorial” comments/”suggestions”(I was assured) to me, and, presumably, other writers/members; he recommended, (again, presumably) in the name of standardisation of the writings in the booklet,”amendments” which decimated my use of non-common-useage words{most of which are in one sentence above!}; failing to see his own (inappropriate) dearth/death of sensitivity, nor any ability to where I was coming from(genuinely) or, indeed, in a contrapuntal not incommensurate way, any irony. He did not know me: he had not been there in ANY of the 8 weeks.

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Albeit that I might crave a bit of fame, it is double-edged, a forked tongue; because the marketplace of books/writing/publishing includes the power of the editor, which, in turn, reflects the needs of the marketplace(for its own{self}-reproduction),a, sometimes,self-devouring aspect of capitalism. Books have to sell to an actual(mainstream or niche) audience or, patronisingly and controllingly, be PERCEIVED (by the power-wielding editor) as being able to sell…. {of course, Sebald and many other writers earned, through sheer perseverance, or positions, already attained, of power within the academy, their being allowed to write idiosyncratically and quirkily;so that Sebald’s putative verbosity, and , not least, his tortuous and tortured, rhizomatic sentences, ironically, became HALLMARKS and seen as crucial to his opera.Others, struggling to be known/published, or needing money, are not so lucky or persevering…}

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When , in whatever context, we critique other people’s writing, we should strive to reflect,always, on the subjective experience we employ when we do so; we should NOT project our own values and insecurities on others(writing). We CAN respect otherness/difference in writing content and style sans being freaked out and, thus, judgemental; of course, there is no true objectivity, but one can/should try…. So, people might like Stephen King or Judy Finnigan; they might like Proust or Orwell. I don’t judge; so neither should you: it is a kind of intolerable and intolerant (reverse) snobbery

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This set of ruminations {sic! lol} is not intended to be sarcastic (although I am, understandably, a little bitter and cross) but a blueprint for CONstructive critiques, affirming safe-spaces of not uncritical (but positively so) thought on others’ writing(and speech, for that matter):
Make your own

Space

Better than a market-

Place;

Hog a

Blog

Write your

Self…

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We can be communal by respecting our differences: that is what should bring us together.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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