“BACK HOME”.PROSE AND ERSATZ SEBALD. BY STEVEN BENSON

It seemed unreal,as if I had been on a journey I was not sure I had really wanted to embark upon in the first place.It might have been an adventure and pleasant but, overall, was tortured, riven and difficult https://towardsutopia.wordpress.com/2015/06/10/ruptureraptureattempted-by-steven-benson/

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So, now, I sit outside a familiar former(and now current again) haunt in Lark Lane and view everything I  had taken for granted( and, only now, truly appreciate) for twenty-three years: the cafes, the tattoo parlour, the decaying façade of the legendary “Keiths”, the Chinese Grocer; and all the other quirky appurtenances of this wacky street.

I am sitting around two corners from the deracinated (probably, by now) pile that was home,for all those years; concomitantly, I am sitting around two corners from my (second!) NEW home; which has the best of four (environmental) worlds: near Lark Lane;almost opposite Sefton Park; in the heart of an inadvertent wildlife sanctuary; and doors away from three examples of decayed (former) splendour. So, I AM HOME AGAIN, with bonuses!

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{re-write}

It seemed to me like I had survived a tortuous route and journey back home (through part luck, part determination), which-struggling to write (self-referentially and in ersatz, cod loosely sebaldian style) sinuously, as I am, relecting back thus the twists and turns of that route (or, as it felt more like, march):-I,periphrastically and with oxymoron, put the main clause-at the end. Or: the main clause at the end: I had arrived.

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Talking of transformation, I am reading “Orlando” by Woolf; reflexions thereon to follow!

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ENTHUSIASMS: CLASSICAL MUSIC, ESPECIALLY OBSCURE ROMANTIC COMPOSERS; BACH/HANDEL LITERATURE, ESPECIALLY THOUGHTFUL, WELL-WRITTEN(STYLISTICALLY)NOVELS W G SEBALD WALTER BENJAMIN THEODOR ADORNO(JUST BEGINNING!) AESTHETIC PHILOSOPHY GAY MEN'S WRITING;QUEER THEORY STIMULATING DISCUSSIONS(EMOTIONALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY) GOOD RICH THICK ESPRESSO MICHAEL PONTI SPRITUALITY/LIFE'S "AURA"(BENJAMIN), WHATEVER TRANSCENDENTAL THING YOU WANT TO CALL THIS MEMORY-the elusiveness thereof. LOST TIME AND AN ATTEMPT AT ITS REDEMPTION(NON THEISTICALLY/RELIGIOUSLY)
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2 Responses to “BACK HOME”.PROSE AND ERSATZ SEBALD. BY STEVEN BENSON

  1. decayetude says:

    Thx, Gill:) ur likes are much appreciated!x

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