NEGOTIATING SAFER SPACES; A POEM(OF SORTS!). BY STEVEN BENSON

Sitting in

A camp

(Or is it

Just

kitsch?)

{Going by the

Decor}

Cafe,

In the

Boho heart of

Liverpool:

I am

Wondering

How safe

It is…

I don’t

Feel

I am to be

Walloped

(Physically or

Emotionally),

But there is

(My-usually-

Reliable

Gaydar

Informs me!)

A gay man

Staffing

The cafe,

(And they

Are

Playing

Franki Valli!)..

How

Out

Is that man?

I am reading a
Queer Theory

Book;

FEELS pretty

Safe…..

I talk to him,

Briefly,

Whilst

He is still

Alone;

But then

Others appear:

Do they

KNOW he is

(Probably)

Gay.

So I stop

Cos I am

In danger of

Outing him;

We skate and

Walk on a

Tightrope

Through the

Now

Hegemonicized

Space…

When we

Were alone

I said the mini

Ice-cream cones

attached to

The espresso

Cup

Were

Camp

(I had

To say

“In a good way”

In case

He took it

Pejoratively):

{Negotiating

Spaces

Again}…………

{As an out gay man, I/you are often negotiating/managing  hegemonic/heterosexist/hetero-normativised spaces in public areas; unless I am with other gay people, and even then it is safety in numbers. You never fully know, in any heternormativized communal space/setting , of ANY kind,what any manifested antagonism against you is truly about.Is it “Fear of a Queer Planet”(Thank you Michael Warner for that particular title!),or is it MY paranoia, or, most likely, a mixture of the two; see this posthttps://towardsutopia.wordpress.com/2011/09/14/wg-sebaldcritics-responsenon-response-to-the-large-amount-of-homosocialityclose-male-friendshipsand-of-homosexualbisexual-characters-in-his-work-with-particular-reference-to-the-character-of-h/}

But

Not to

Angst

(Too much).

I shall

Enjoy

The camp

Mini

Ice-cream

Cone

And the

Queer

Ambience

And

Remember that

(Thank goodness!)

I live

In this

Part of

Liverpool!

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About decayetude

ENTHUSIASMS: CLASSICAL MUSIC, ESPECIALLY OBSCURE ROMANTIC COMPOSERS; BACH/HANDEL LITERATURE, ESPECIALLY THOUGHTFUL, WELL-WRITTEN(STYLISTICALLY)NOVELS W G SEBALD WALTER BENJAMIN THEODOR ADORNO(JUST BEGINNING!) AESTHETIC PHILOSOPHY GAY MEN'S WRITING;QUEER THEORY STIMULATING DISCUSSIONS(EMOTIONALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY) GOOD RICH THICK ESPRESSO MICHAEL PONTI SPRITUALITY/LIFE'S "AURA"(BENJAMIN), WHATEVER TRANSCENDENTAL THING YOU WANT TO CALL THIS MEMORY-the elusiveness thereof. LOST TIME AND AN ATTEMPT AT ITS REDEMPTION(NON THEISTICALLY/RELIGIOUSLY)
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One Response to NEGOTIATING SAFER SPACES; A POEM(OF SORTS!). BY STEVEN BENSON

  1. decayetude says:

    Thanks Gill:)love

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